Sunday, October 30, 2016

A Post Of Gray And White

Call You Back


Glicer Saul Anapa Valencia
























Domino














                   Qym







Savy













Buss Home From Work

TKD
                                                                                       
                                                                        Wansly Saul    
The Dead Tree






















The Present Past 


Reaching

Can't Touch This
Forgetasnore 

Far Below 
Alone 
It's Time

Me And the Sky

While I Cry 


Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Short Story On Account Of Domino

I told you a little about my new boy, Domino, in a previous post.  Here's a scene I wrote from his past that I'm not sure will end up in the actual story but is fairly important.  He appears the age of seven or eight, but is actually about ten minutes old.  He has just appeared on earth, with a head full of all the general information one needs to get along in life, and a mission.  He remembers nothing of being with his birth parents in...'ghost land' or what ever.  It's like waking up from a dream.



“Hello, is this the Deep’s house?”  
“Yes,” She smiled down at me with her perfect pink lips.  She wore a baggy gray hoodie and her pony-tail was still damp from a shower.  She seemed a little too young to be my mother, maybe in her 20's, but I guess I seemed a little too old to be her baby.
“Oh, cool,” I smiled back and fought for an introduction.  They told me what to do, but they forgot to tell me how to introduce myself.  I mean, I know I didn’t seem threatening.  I asked that guy on the side walk what I looked like, and based on his description I concluded myself to be a pretty good looking chump.  Who could reject me?  A cute kid like me and a nice lady like that just seemed to fit together.  Maybe we could even look alike!
“My name is Dominic, or what ever you here forth decide to name me.” A good start.  But my vocabulary was too big.  I should probably start off seeming the age I appeared, “Dominic Deep.  That’s my last name.  That’s your last name right?”
She giggled like a little girl, “Yes.” 
I liked her a lot.
“Yes.  Well.  I’m here to say, or, I was sent to tell you that I’m your new kid.”
Her eyes narrowed and she pursed her lips, “As in…”
“Like, your kid.  Like, your baby.  Your child.  Your son.  Son!” I pointed at her and laughed, “That’s the word I was going for.”
“Your my son?” She squinted like looking into the sun.  Only instead of squinting up at the sun she was squinting down at her son.  
“I hope that’s okay with you,” I widened my ‘pretty blue eyes’, “I mean, if you really don’t want me that’s fine.  It is kind of rude, me demanding you to take care of me for the rest of childhood.  But I mean, I’ll try not to be too much of a pain in the rear, and perhaps spare myself from any pains upon my rear.” 
 I tried a laugh at me clever joke, but my new mother forgot to laugh.  Her chest heaved and she opened her mouth to speak but I was on a role,  “All I ask is that you drive me around to my different activities until I’m old enough to drive.  And if you could feed me that would be marvelous.”
“I-” She shook her head and rubbed her elbow, “Did you run away?”
“No,” I laughed, “I’ve never even existed before.  But in 'ghost land' or what-ever Mom and Dad told me to ‘get a life!’” I mimicked my deceased parents with a polite laugh in which my new Mother forced a crooked giggle.  Like a violin vibrato.
“So they sent me here to your house so you could adopt me if you wanted.  I got a bag full of vital-earth-living-equipment so you don’t need to provide that,” I turned sideways to show her my back pack with every pocket fattened with ‘vitals.’”
My new mother blinked.  She had pretty dark eye lashes.  She looked passed me with her little nose in the air, as if expecting more children to appear coming down her graveled drive way.   
She bent down a little so her face was closer to mine and said in a deeper, softer voice, “Are you lost?”  
“No.  I’ve never even been here before.”
“So, you are lost.”
Who could one get lost in a little town like this?  Even an alien like me couldn't.
“I mean, I’ve never been to planet earth before.  I’ve literally walked from town to your door step in my entire existence which doesn’t mean much because I don’t even exist.”
By her face she evidently watched way too much sci-fi, which made me love her even more.  
“It’s really complicated, but the important thing is, I’m here now and I’m ready to start my life.  You can forget the rest.”  I found my efforts fleeting, “May I at least stay the night?”
“Who sent you?”
“Mom and Dad said, ‘God.’  But I never actually received that message from him personally.”
She bent down so she balanced on the balls of her feet and propped her elbows on her knees.  She looked me straight in the eyes, "Who are your parents?"
“J.B and Lesley McDonald.” 
“Okay!” She cried and jolted backwards so she fell on her hands and crawled away from me into her house, “You need to go!  Get out!  Get away from me!”
“Wait!  Calm down!  I’m not trying to haunt you!”  Well, if the definition of ‘haunting’ was a spirit or un-earthly creature visiting you and scaring you then technically, yes, I was haunting her.
“J.B and Lesley never had kids!  They never even got married!” She protested.
“Oh yeah,” I shook my head, forgetting to mention this, “They got married after they died.” 
She stared at me like a statue.  But her breathing was amplified and her neck tensed.  I thought if I opened my mouth one more time she would faint, but I couldn’t leave my new mother in such a state.  So I started again, casually, 
“Result,” I snapped my fingers and pointed to myself with a big smile.
“Okay,” She slowly eased off the floor with one hand in front her like I was going to attach, “I don’t want to call the police.  But so help me if you keep saying things like that and trying to scare me then I will, okay?  You hear me?”  
I blew it.  Why couldn’t my deceased parents have looked down from ghost land and found some other lady to be my mom who wasn’t friends with them before?  But thinking this stabbed me because I liked my new mother too much already.
“I’m sorry, I’m really sorry!"  I looked straight up in her pretty brown eyes.
She sighed and rubbed her face, “What do you want?”  Her voice maintained it’s calmness with a hint of melancholy.
I wanted her to be my mom.  I wanted her to love me, not think I was some prank playing brat.  It was the first thing I ever wanted, my mother.  I guess that’s the first thing everyone wants when they enter this world.  The thought of walking away from that house and letting her close the door was such an empty, stinging thought.  I wanted my mom.
“I just want a turkey sandwich.”
One of her eye brows went up and the other went down.  She looked at me through her fingers.  Then her shoulders shook like she was crying, but when she dropped her hands, her face and wrinkled in a giggle.  She cleared her throat, “You, uh, you want a turkey sandwich?”  
I nodded, “If it’s not too much trouble.” My voice was soft, I couldn’t get my spirits high enough to speak any louder.
She was giggling so hard that her face blotched red and she rubbed under her eyelids with her knuckles, leaving wet streaks.  
“Okay,” She said when she found a breath.  She stepped aside and opened the door a little wider. 


  


    

Tuesday, October 11, 2016

Lonesome Ghost

Here's a poem.
Please don't think I'm wailing in depression, I like to think of 'what ifs' in my head and write them down.  I function on exaggeration energy and drama juice.  I think it's a poet thing.  Poetry how I get myself functioning again.  Look up Notepad by NF.  It's sorta like that.  If you don't write poetry, you should keep a journal.  The journal doesn't judge.


Lonesome Ghost 

"Leaving
Leaving
You alone,"
Says the Lonesome Ghost.
He lingers there,
Does nothing but stare,
At the ones that I love most.

"Wrong
Wrong
Leave my head,"
As my knees hit the floor.
But he lingers there,
Does nothing but stare.
I've never seen him before.

"Leaving
Leaving
Growing up,
Much too old for you.
They wont be there,
They may not care,
What I say is true."

"Stop it
Stop it
Stinging me
You're ripping out my soul."
But he lingers there,
Does nothing but stare,
And now he's in control.

"Father
Father
See me here
I don't want to watch them go.
Change this fate
It's not too late.
They mean more then they know."

I don't know how I would survive,
They make my spirit come alive.
Take us on the train to Neverland.
Run from all the ghost had planed.
So I can sigh and hold their hand.
We'll never grow up,
We'll be okay,
We'd be the ones who escaped the dreaded day.

"Leaving
Leaving
You alone"
Says the lonesome ghost.
He lingers there,
Does nothing but stare,
At the ones that I love most.

"Help me
Help me
Hold the pain,
God my infinite friend.
I'm too week for this
Too much I miss
For Neverland is pretend."

"Coming
Coming
One day soon,"
Says my infinite friend,
"Free from fear,
We'll be together here,
And it wont be pretend."








Sunday, October 2, 2016

How To Make Your Study Life Easier

Once I heard someone say that they hated studying, and that it 'raised their stress level.' At first I thought that was absolutely preposterous, but as I thought about it, I suppose studying can be a bit stressful.  So because it would be a sin to spare you of my deep and intimate knowledge, I have decided to share it with you in How To Make Your Study Life Easier.  Because keeping the secret to how I NEVER get stressed over studying would be like having a coffee house and never serving the coffee.

Here are the supplies you need for easy studying:
1. A trash bin
2. A brain 
If you need an extra one I have several in my freezer from previous brain surgery's.  Just give me call).
3. Something to study, like the growth rate of arm pit hair compared to men and sharks.
4. COFFEE
5. Two cats, one really fat gray one and one really twerpy orange fluffy one
6. Oxygen 
7. Stress ball
8A desk wrapped in a thick layer of foam 
So when you hit your head on it, it wont hurt too bad.

Now.  Maybe you thing that you don't have to read this.  In case you're confused whether or not you're stressed with studying, you can usually decided "yes" if you have experienced any of the following:
1. You're in Algebra 
2. A lack of pencils because you broke them all 
3. You find yourself throwing tantrums that you thought you were incapable of sense you were two
4. A sudden urge to kill something 
5. Or all of the above 

These are indications of stress.  Here are steps on how to lower stress.  I got these from various 'positive and encouraging' pop-Christian-songs that play on the radio.
1.  Just Breathe
This one is a little hard.  I know it's hard.  It must be because they repeat it over and over again in the lyrics.  But it's also important for studying, and just about everything else I've noticed.
2. Just be held 
I never really understood how this works, but if the song says it then it's probably right.
"Hay, uh, Mom?"
"Yes Elemis?"
"I was wondering if you could hold me."
"....Well...I'm a little busy right now...."
"Oh okay.  Well, how about later on then?  Because I'm pretty stressed and all..."
3. Just say "Jesus"
Simple enough I suppose.  In the song they meant it in a very somber spiritual way.  But I mean, I hear cussing is a great stress realiver too.
4. Wipe the worries off your windshield
??????
Just Smile
:).........."Okay.....Now what?"
5. Maintain your basic bodily functions.
I made this one up.  I mean, it's easier in a song to say, "Just breath" Then "Just maintain your basic bodily functions and don't die" But that's pretty much what they mean.  So make sure your drinking water, going to the bathroom on a regular basis (the more relief you have the better) eat food, don't smoke, go to sleep, WAKE UP, and itch it.  You know it's itchy, so for goodness sake's just itch it!  No one cares!

Here are some other things to do:

1. Drink a lot of coffee.
Keep your self awake.  One in the morning, one in the afternoon, and one at night should do.
2.  Have a ball.
A stress ball is good.  And if you feel the sudden need to through something at someone, don't hesitate.  You'll feel great afterward.
3.  Have a ball
The other ball.  The dance ball.
4. Pet a kitty.
5. Take a shower.
6. Dance around the kitchen like mad to a cheesy Disney song.
Trust me.  It works.  Just Let it Go.

Here are a list of things that are BAD for studying and stress relief:
1.  Those dumb games with the little metal ball that you have to get in the middle of the maze.
Your mind gets consumed in this game to a point where you can't put it down, yet the ball never goes in the whole.  This will crush your soul and destroy your mind.
2.  Sewing.
It may seem like a relaxing hobby.  Wrong.  Sewing machines were forged in the fires of mount doom.
3. Crushes.
They're terribly inconvenient in many ways.
4. A coffee-less, kitty-less house. 
5. Funny siblings. 
ESPECIALLY the funny ones. 
6. Algebra.
Need I say more?