I'm leave on a missions trip to Loja Ecuador in 40 days for a week and a half. I don't know any Spanish. I've never been on the missions trip. My geography sucks. (I'm not totally sure why that's important but it feels important so I added it) I'm the youngest going by a lot. I go sick when I have to even share a testimony. I'm directionally challenged....Rephrase. I'm directionally broken.
Some months ago I heard work mates talk about me on different occasions, about my stupidity. "Yeah, who does that?"
It hurt.
*Writing about my trip to Ecuador.* Your writing is baloney. You're not actually passionate about this.
*Making wrist bands to sell as a fund raiser.* What a dumb logo. These are stupid. You're stupid.
Everything I did seemed to start with That's dumb and end with You're dumb.
I'm too stupid. Too stupid to do anything. I mess up everything. I want to follow God's will but God can't use a stupid person.
I'm in Seussical the Musical. I'm not being random, really, I actually have a point to this. If you don't know the story, it's about Horton the Elephant (the local no-brain) who takes the responsibility upon himself to be the protector of an abandoned birds egg, and an invisible world. Throughout the story he's called a fool, he's teased, he's tormented, and even battled because of his faithfulness.
I was reading 1 Corinthians this morning. Paul describes the Corinthians in that church as 'not wise by human standards or noble or educated.'
And then he says;
But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things-and the things that are not-to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him.
My first thought: That sounds like Horton.
Then it got personal. I remembered asking God how he could use me. He replied, "Just like this."
I meant what I said, and I said what I meant. An elephant's faithful one-hundred percent! You can throw me in jail, lock me up in a zoo, but I wont desert my egg and I will not abandon Who!
-Horton (Seussical the Musical, from the books my Dr. Seuss)
(Verse from 1 Corinthians 1:27-29)